Day 9 - Bubbles

It is my intention while writing this blog to try my hardest to keep things as light as possible. I want this to be a very positive experience, not a year of emotional turmoil. I will allow myself to continue to heal and grieve as memories arise but I’d like this experience to celebrate and honor Heather’s life more than spend my time during my day’s intention, sad or unhappy. Our time together was always happy, laughing and being silly together (even through the tough times). Thus, I’d like this journey to reflect that nature of who Heather and I were together. To me, that is the real way to keep her memory thriving and keep who she was to me very much alive.

That being said, although I have already had some fun times during this blog, I have found that I am experiencing times in my day when I find myself dazing off for a moment, thinking of her and feeling sad. I don’t have a problem acknowledging those feelings cause I have pushed them away so many times before but I will not embrace the sadness, I cannot. I’ve allowed myself some tears (which is never easy for me) but I will not allow myself to be dragged into an abyss.

Therefore, for today’s intention, I am taking it super light. I picked up some bubbles and although it’s only 36 degrees out, I am going on my deck and blowing some bubbles. The sun was out, the wind gently breezing by, the water is a deep blue/grey color and a little choppy and there are some clouds out but only enough to make a beautiful setting. It was not too cold to be out there for a bit. As I blew my bubbles, the wind tossed them here and there. I noticed people on the street looking up as they walked by to see the bubbles coming from my deck. Good! Maybe I brightened someone’s day for a moment. Who doesn’t love bubbles?

I didn’t stay out there too long. I came in and made a cup of tea and here I sit typing away. Even while I’m typing I’m smiling thinking of the bubbles. Yea….this was a great intention today. Keeping it light ~ while still keeping it real. Love you Heather!

Here I go....